I WANT TO PREACH!!!! This was my feeling while sitting in service Sunday. My family and I have found a GREAT church and we are slowly assimilating and getting involved. The transition process from Lead Pastor to just a church member/attendee has honestly been a rough one. There have been Sunday’s that I really could not wait to get to service, and there have been Sunday’s that I really had to push my way out the door to go.
It’s now been twenty, TWENTY, Sunday’s since I stood on a platform and engaged a congregation and communicated the Gospel. Yesterday wasn’t the first time I’ve missed preaching/teaching. There have been MANY days where that was the case. However, yesterday was different in that it was the first time that I felt like I could. You see, for the last few months I’ve felt like a failure. I felt like I did not deserve to ever operate in that capacity again. I felt abandoned as none of my pastor “friends” reached out to ask me to come and speak. I could go on and on with the feelings that I’ve gone through. With each passing week it felt like the load got heavier and more difficult to sift through. Some days I just wanted to be numb to it all. Yet, somehow yesterday that all shifted while our Journey’s Pastor delivered a phenomenal message concerning detours.
I’m not sure why we are in the season that we are in. I’m not sure why we are on this detour, BUT, I do believe that God has a purpose. During the sermon yesterday the point was made that, “a faith that can’t be tested is a faith that can’t be trusted.” That will make you want to throw a shoe and run a pew!!
I’m ready to preach again. I don’t know when that will happen. I don’t know how that will happen. I’m not even sure that I would accept all invites. I’m not going to reach out and “politic” my way to an opportunity. I’m just going to be still in this moment and let God speak. I’m going to enjoy serving side by side with my wife and kids in the local church and watch God do GREAT things.
Some of you may be in a similar place and you find yourself on an unexpected detour. Quit fighting against it and let God drive you through it. It may not be where you want to be, but it may just be where you are supposed to be for this season.